It would be so much better if I had stuck too my guns. I’m such a vulnerable person though. I have no problem pretending I don’t care though. I’m very good at it. So i’ll keep on doing that. Even know that i’m still holding on & keeping you around until i’m done. This is all a process that i’m still taking time doing. So the fact that I can’t let go I become self-destructive. You’d think the way I lie too you about me not “caring” would work. Nope. Soon come I know i’ll be done.. if ever.